Author: courtzemke

Searching for happiness. A reason to write?

I think I started this blog to motivate myself to find my own happiness. I called it Choosing Happiness because quite honestly i wasnt happy at that point in my life. Why wasn’t I happy? For starters, I had just moved home from living in Los Angeles. I, like many, moved out there when I was 18. I was pursuing a dance career. I had the talent, the drive and all the support, but it was my own head that got in the way. A call in the middle of the night to my parents had me on a plane the next morning. I’ll never forget January 18, 2012.   Moving home was tough. I felt like a failure, but looking back at it now, I just wasn’t happy. I wasn’t happy with myself among many other things. But how could I be? I went from a sheltered, spoiled life of dancing, traveling, surrounded by friends and family, and used to winning and being the best. When I moved to LA, alone, all of that …

Hold up. Let’s Reflect

I don’t often give myself enough credit. Credit for all I’ve accomplished; all I’ve built; the person I’ve become. Yesterday I sat in a restaurant at the airport. I talked with a complete stranger about my visit to New York and about her travels to Raleigh. She asked about my fiance (I can’t find the freaking keyboard shortcut to make that french, so do not judge) about how he proposed, when we were getting married and so much more. She reminded me that my plane was leaving soon and I quickly asked for the bill. As I signed the receipt, she said, “Tell your parents they raised you well”. I doubt she realizes that her words are sticking to me 24 hours later. Writing this to remind myself to slow down. While I’m out chasing for the next big thing, waiting for and praying that I’m putting the best foot forward and hoping that everyone sees it and is recognizing, I need to remember that I’m doing my best and who cares if they aren’t. Stop allowing …

Paris and London Journal

Our Paris and London trip was incredible! I couldn’t imagine a better two weeks spent. Okay, it could have been a tad warmer, but other than that, I have ZERO complaints. It’s only a few days after and my memory is already starting to fog up and I’m forgetting little details so I want to use this post to capture some of my favorite memories. Here I go: PARIS: The first four days, we stayed in the 2nd arrondissement. This area is fabulous. It’s clean, the restaurants staff speak english and are super friendly and inviting. Lots of shopping, its close to the Louvre and everything is within walking distance. With that said, we did a  lot of walking! Almost 8-10 miles every day. If you stay in this area, (the Opera) area, you can pretty much walk everywhere. We stayed at the H’Orset Opera. We thought the room was small until we went to the next two hotels and learned that this was actually the biggest room we would get! I gave up croissants …

What I’m Watching, Listening & Reading

What I’m watching: The Handmaid’s Tale on Hulu. At times hard to watch but impossible to ignore, this series is based off of a novel by Margaret Atwood. It’s set in Gilead, a totalitarian society in what used to be part of the United States. Gilead is ruled by a fundamentalist regime that treats women as property of the state and is faced with environmental disasters and a plummeting birth rate. In a desperate attempt to repopulate a devastated world, the few remaining fertile women are forced into sexual servitude. (This description is straight from Rotten Tomatoes) 🙂  What I’m listening to:  Justin Timberlake’s new album, Man of the Woods  What I’m reading: Refinery29’s The Silent Rise Of The Female-Driven Economy. If you don’t have a chance to read the whole thing, here’s a few key wowzers: Out of 1,500 S&P CEOs, there are fewer female CEOs than there are CEOs named John. Women are the single largest productive economic force and drive almost every economic indicator for businesses. But that’s not the impression we get when we read economic data …

What I’m Watching, Listening & Reading

What I’m watching: The New York Times started a video series called, Love. Pain. Regret. Six Stories About Becoming a Mother. The way they visually tell these heartwrenching stories is amazing. P.s. Have Kleenex on hand! What I’m listening to: HAIM’S new album, Something to tell You. What I’m reading: TIME’s January 29 Cover Story: The Marched. Now they’re Running. BONUS: I’m also mildly obsessed with Planet Earth 2 on Netflix. This world we live in is INCREDIBLE.